Monday, October 31, 2005 »
Jesus loves you, just like you are.
The power of God, is the result of the glory of God.
God's power is the fruit of God's presence.
God's anointing proceeds out of God's presence.
The presence of God deals with God's ways.
How many times have we been awed by the power of God.
That people fall under the power of God, that people are filled with the Holy Spirit that they break out in Holy laughter, or the times when new tongues are given and interpretation follows?
How many times have we looked at the miracle works of God and got consumed by God's enormousity? How many times have we looked at that pastor who is so anointed that he moved so powerfully in the gifts of the Holy Spirit and we think to ourselves that we, one day, want to become like that?
So, we go home and worshipped alot, read the bible alot, want to walk closely with God, only with this motive in mind, that we, if we walk closely, can enjoy the power of God. True, this principle holds, because the closer you walk with God, the more faithful you are in the little things, the more God can entrust you with His power.
But hold it before your thoughts run far, do you do all this for the sake of wanting God's power? Or do you do this because you love God, and God only? That even without His anointing, without the working of miraculous God-given gifts through your hands, you would still want to walk with Him?
Are you contented by just walking this walk with Him?
The passage in Mark 8:27-30 when Jesus asked Peter who he thinks He is, peter did not waver or have second thoughts about who Jesus is. He simply said "You are the Christ." This 4 simple words holds so much truth in it, because from it, we can see the sincerity of Peter's heart. That he do not need affirmation from the world to confirm Jesus's identity, because he knew Jesus. Because Peter walked with Him.
Notice this fact, the presence of God can change a person.
Its in the presence of God, that people's hearts melt.
Saul, also known as Paul, was persecuting the church like mad. He know God, in his mind, all the traditions and such.
But on the damascus road, God revealed the Person of Jesus to him.
Lo and behold, his life changed completely.
Saul heard about the power of God, for all we know, he may have seen the workings of God through the disciples, but the power of God didnt change his mind about everything. He continued persecuting the church.
But Jesus' presence changes everything. When Jesus spoke, He spoke to Saul's heart.
That changed his life forever.
Paul found his destiny in God, preaching about His kingdom to become the apostle of the gentiles. His destiny is so great that without him, the gospel may not have reached us.
When you seek Jesus, you seek the key to life itself. Because the key, is Jesus, the Son of God.
Dont seek the power of God, when Jesus walks in, everything else comes in with Him.
His love comes in, His power comes in, His mercy comes in.
Dont seek life, seek the life-giver. John 4:13-14, John 7:37-38
Dont seek forgiveness, seek the One who forgives. Luke 5:24
Start seeking Jesus today.
Saturday, October 29, 2005 »
when i started typing this entry, i havent got my ten things yet, but i think, they'd come to me.
1) Multiplication of E310 at end of jan!! -good thing! but i'd miss them! -cries-
2) No Cell Group for 3-4 weeks!
3) Not able to go for The Tabernacle Churchwide bible study!
4) The growth of zits on my face.
5) The continual losing of weight.
6) That 1 day is too short.
7) Suffering under exams.
8) Flat wallet. -blessing blessing -prays-
i thought and i thought. cant seem to think of two more. shall stop here.
title correction : EIGHT things.
im lazy to change.
"Thus says the Lord. I have set my eyes on this cell group because you guys are people who are after me and who are faithful. and i will honour this cell grp. Revival will be pour forth in this cell group. it won't be just a revival in numbers. but out of this cell group. there will be a spiritual revival. that there will be true worshippers from this cell group who will worship me in spirit and in truth"
quoted from jen. copyright not seeked yet. but im sure shes nice enough not to sue me.
heard cell was power today! i want to cry le =(
jo prayed in new tongues and interpretted it! -points to quote-
i miss out alot leh..
i jus realized.
that time very short.
which is bad
for people who need ample time to study
how i wish i have 30 hours in a day instead of the usual 24.
i can slp 6 hours.
slack 6 hours.
and still study 10 hours and have 2 hours to eat!
i really need 30 hours in a day.
here i am, stuck in mic's house with a whiney jen.
slept at 6.
woke at 930.
courtesy of me.
now shes hitting esther.
must be hard on her.
the condition of my mind can be deduced from
Friday, October 28, 2005 »
hey guys! this is my new layout!
what struck me is its simplicity and the colour.
speaks of us. living in world filled with lies.
whoever is true?
what is real?
grey. isnt it true?
that most things are in the grey area.
because most things are subject to self interpretation.
what you see, may not be what i see.
what you hear, may not be what i hear.
what you feel, is only what you want to feel.
we have a heart.
to feel the things of this world.
to pulsate with the heartbeat the pumps with the lifeblood of the earth.
to be able to choose
to live life to the fullest.
though we may get entangled during different stages of our lives,
but entanglement doesnt hold forever,
entanglement are just cobwebs in disguise.
will yourself, break free.
dun lose yourself, and be trapped.
Sunday, October 02, 2005 »
huiru said i lost weight yesterday when i saw her. biggest shock of my life!
i looked at myself and i thought , "did i really lose weight?"
i supposed it must be pretty serious cause she looked really worried, being already the stick that i am.
needless to say, im super conscious of my weight and how i appear to others. i guess this is my genetic makeup. i will take note of what people tell me and i will TRY to make myself more presentable to others despite the limited budget and the limited fashion sense that i have. But the most important thing that i tell myself is that as long as i look fine to myself and the comments people gave are reasonable and i really did my best to change, im fine with it. but overall, i know i look haggard and tired and blur right now, coupled with deep rooted eye bags and big fluffy eye rings and raging outbreaks. to tell you the truth, i look really terrible. make that ten times it.
then come sunday morning, jolene came behind me and said "max....you really very thin leh" and i went crumbling down. i realised, i really did not take care of myself this past month. the reason why im so tired, why im so sleepy everytime, is the result of not enough sleep and rest.
i hate the A's. i really do.
i have to decide between so many different things.
the sentence that most often pops up in my mind recently is "max, you dont have enough faith". it really kicks me in the arse hard. constantly on the struggle whether the thing im going to do is the right thing. whether do i weigh everything correctly, not forgetting the God-factor that can tilt everything in my favour.
it really seems weird, that you know all these stuffs, you know how to counsel people, and yet, when it comes to you being the main character, all hell comes against you. the struggle everyone faces when they come for advice come splashing right at your face. and you just dont know what to choose.
i know im stressed. with only 37 days down to the papers. whos not?
i seek advice from two peope, Gideon and Jolene, because i know i cant handle it alone, i need people to help me map out my thoughts and which path i need to take.
im really really lost.
God, I need You...
I really really do.